Moments of clarity.

I've been trying to figure out why I have a small population of mosquitos in my new bedroom since I moved in on Saturday.

I've also been trying to figure out why the room won't frapping cool down when I know for a fact that a) the a/c is blowing cold air, and b) the room is not very big.

This morning, as I was getting ready for work, I happened to look at the top of the window.

Which had slid down, leaving 4-5 inches of space letting in said small population of mosquitos, and presumably keeping the a/c from effectively cooling the entire room (as opposed to the space directly around my head, which rests right under the window when I sleep).

Hopefully this means that shit will work better tonight.

Unfortunately, I doubt it's going to solve the problem of taking forever to fall asleep, and then waking up every 2 hours all night long. I am exhausted, I am heartbreakingly sad, and I just want my old life back. I miss him. I miss us. I wish it could be different.

I moved, and then it sucked.

Title pretty much sums it up.

My heart is in pieces. My head hurts. My whole body aches. I keep bursting into tears at random moments.

I miss him so much.

They tell me this gets easier. I hope they're right.